I went to my new college yesterday to sign on. Sue, my new teacher, was impressed with my results. I could just have my results put onto computer, sign up for my courses and go home. My dad was amazed at how quick everything was. I was back within half an hour. I saw Heather there too - she's doing psychology too and there is a chance she might be in the same class as me. To remine you all on what I'm doing next year, I shall be doing English Literature, Psychology, History and Communication Studies. I don't know what I want to do when I grow up yet but I have flirted with the idea of becoming a psychologist. I think I'll look into it. I wouldn't mind being a writer on the side too, I am writing many things at the moment. I have never received a bad review from people. I wouldn't mind being a libranian.

Sophie

Well I fianlly got my GCSE results today and it is good news. I swear I had trouble going to sleep last night I was so worried. When I finally got to morning I was lying there for ages, waiting for it to turn up. When my dad did come up with the post he didn't bring me the results. I was worried they were lost in the post or the school hadn't sent them. All that worrying for nothing. My mum later told me that he had brought it to her first. He finally brought it to me and I opened it straight away. I didn't look at the subjects straight away, just the grades... when I saw there were no Ds I started screaming and rushed to my mum.

A - English
A - English Literature
A - Art and Design
B - History
B - RE (Religious Studies)
B - Citizenship
C - Maths
C - Science 1: Mods 1-6
C - Science 2: Mods 7-12
C - Food Tech.
C - Statistics

I'm so glad because now I can go on to do the subjects that I want in college. That's all I wanted, all I ever wanted. Truth is once we are in college no one will care about our GCSEs anymore. There was this one silly cow who was upset becayse she didn't all A*s! For the love of God! How sad is that? I mean if you value your GCSEs THAT much you really are sad. They're only there to give you grades to you can go on to do A levels or BTECH!

Meh, let her sulk all she wants the little boff... we're all going to college and that's worth celebrating big time! WOOT!

Sophie

Have you ever wished you could just throw yourself off a bridge over water, fall down and down into the pits of the river and still be able to breathe? I wish I could feel the water down... It would be so cool, refreshing and liberating. I feel so dirty! I guess I'm just tired after today's day - I had a college thing and all I can say is that I'm glad to get out of the house.

Sophie

I can't wait till I finish my exams and then begin college. I have always had a personality that stopped me from getting bored. I don't understand some people who can sit around doing nothing. They are one step above me, I suppose. I never go around saying that I'm bored to my parents. I don't think I've ever been truly bored. Whether that is because my life is very eventful or whether I have many interests I don't know. Yet, I always need something to do. That's why I need to go on learning so I can go out and get a job, giving me something else to do. I was watching Corrie the other night and I think it's stupid how that David boy doesn't want to work, do his GCSEs, or do anything. If I were his mum I'd kick him out so he'd get the message. I mean, what does he think he's going to do with the rest of his life? His mummy won't be there to look after him forever!

Anyway, on the 9th July I'm going to a Palmer's College day, with my interview with my tutor straight afterwards. I'm going to that college in September to study English Literature, Psychology, Communication studies and History. I just hope my GCSEs are okay - I know I won't do terribly because it isn't in my nature to do *awful* in anyway. I won't let myself. I'm just worried it won't be good enough. I know, I know, I'm being silly but I can't help it. I'm one of those people who is laid back until it is thrown in front of my face. Then I start to panic.

You know I have one real dream? That's to be a writer. I have to admit, I'm happy in being a psychologist or even a librarian. There are a lot of things that I wouldn't mind being but I can only be one thing. I wonder if I will enjoy what I do with life. It's a silly question to ask when I only turned sixteen ten days ago but it's hard to grow up, leave childhood behind, and not think about what I'm going to do with myself. I suppose that is David in Corrie's problem too... without the wondering what to do part. Why can't be be writeen more like me. At least I have more sense.

Love you all

Sophie

xxx

PS: Did anyone else see Doctor Who the other night? Bloody hell! What an ending! So happy that the you-know-who of Doctor Who is back^^